Whispers and Wishes: a little window into the world where i create

we all have a voice inside that encourages us to be greater than we believe ourselves to be. it urges us to nurture, create and wander. that voice speaks in whispers and we repeat its urgings as wishes-- I wish I had time to paint, to craft, to write... to whatever it is that we do that helps us become who we are. The journey is mostly private but the voice you hear is not very different from the one that speaks in me. it is not about the destination but rather who you become along the way

Tuesday, November 29, 2011

November 29: What is the last thing you do before going to bed?

I sort of have a list of last things... I read before bed... every night. I write in a journal, many nights, but not every night. I check my alarm, every night, I tell my son, even if he is already sleeping, "Good night, I love you." I have a difficult time being a parent... for many it seems to come easily, but I really struggle with making time to be present with my child. I haven't a four year old sense of the world... I dislike repeating myself... I take no joy in playing Dinosaur Fights or having stuffed animal races... and I hope that he understands that no matter how hard giving him the "me" he wants can be, that I love him, love him, love him.

2 comments:

Beatrice, Bea, Bibi--That's me! said...: The last things I do before I go to bed: fill my CPAP machine with water, wash and brush, sit with the cat in my lap (this is an every night thing), sit and fall asleep on the sofa next to my husband and when I wake up, I tell him I love him and say good night. Even though things aren't perfect with us, I still love him, regardless of what may or may not happen.; December 3, 2011 at 8:46 PM
Whispers and Wishes said...: yes... I think love may really be all about "regardless of whatever happens"; December 7, 2011 at 4:26 PM