You ever spend ten minutes, two hours, three weeks looking for something you know you had but can't remember where it is? Yeah, me, too, at least once a day, every day of my life since Seamus was born. And, no, it's not that Seamus moves things on his mama, it's that his Mama has become overwhelmed with a lack of sleep, the stress of being a single income family, the amount of crafting supplies that I have amassed, the number of projects I'm working on on a daily basis, and of course, a lack of better habits. I lose about an hour every day to the searching for things. When I put something down at work, if i walk away from it, I can't remember where I left it. I was reading a forum post early this morning when my little voice said... "huh, there it is," and planet Kaere switched into overdrive. The Soul Restoration workshop, and the She Art workshop have been great experiences for me, don't get me wrong, but they've also been a bit of a search and rescue mission. I listen to people tell their stories of amazing change, or share their excitement at discovering a new talent, and today I thought... "but you're missing the point... it WAS there ALL along." I lose something in my purse just about everyday, too. I get frustrated digging through the pockets, knowing it's in there but I just can't lay my hands on it. I get a little aggravated with myself for all the things
I do find in there--- receipts that could long since have been thrown away, more tubes of lipstick than one woman should own, never mind carry, mint wrappers... you know the drill, but then, okay, there's my phone--- there all along, my pen, there all along... And that's where I'm busy sitting with SR and She Art... it was there all along. The unique and amazing discoveries we are making, are just that-- we are finding what is already there with in us, and for me, at least, right where I left it. I had just forgotten where I put it. So the reason I'm writing this is to remind you that while you can be grateful, have respect for the teacher, be in awe of your discovery, it is YOU. And hey, it was there all along.
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This is why one of my last SR pieces has as the phrase at the "end" of the tunnel "The light in the darkness is you" to remind me :) x
This is such a great post, and it's true, it *was* there all along, but with the hustle and bustle of life, we lose it and can't remember where we lost it to go back and get it. Thanks for reminding me of this. It was a nice smile.... :)
Well said,(as usual) as Melody wrote in the explanation about SR1, it's not about finding a new you, it's rediscovering the you that was always there! I am the opposite of you organisation wise, some might even (truthfully) say obsessed but I do have memory relapses, so when I do mislay something it is major in my life. As I have got older I have got better (remarkable I know) so on the surface you see (like a swan) the calm presence, unruffled feathers etc but beneath the surface I'm paddling frantically to preserve the status quo. My public rooms & my personal place's are tidy, but open any drawer & there may be organisation or there may be mess. I cannot say the same for my DH who despairs of my organisation and obsession for tidiness and rebels by living in total chaos, which I allow but do not sanction in his own spaces (shed, garage, office & his bedroom) LOL!
Yes, yes, and YES. Absolutely true. That's why the phrase "the real you is still in there" resonated (and still resonates) so much.
I'm so very glad and thankful to meet me again!
--Rebecca.
LOVE this perspective... Melody always said it was about getting back to the you deep inside, but I love your perspective of the "aha - there it is!"... as in I finally found it. Yep, it's there... I just need to find it. LOVE this. Thank you!
Oh, and I had to add... when I have misplaced things for a while, and my husband asks if I threw it out... I always KNOW I didn't throw it out... and I tell him... no... it's here... I just have to find it. If that's so true externally, I must remember that it's true internally, because there's no way I can throw something out that is ME... IS me. :)
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